Has my disease been active recently? In what way?

When I had finally admitted to a few close Friends and my Family that I was an Addict that was highly dependent on my poison of choice (Methamphetamine) and that I have tried to stop using on numerous occasions yet constantly relapsed! It had gotten to the point I had seriously quit quitting because I was completely powerless over my Methamphetamine Addiction along with being  extremely angry within myself and the constant failure of attempting to rid my disgusting drug habit! At this point in time I was honestly left with very few options and wasn't about to go through another Hitting Rock Bottom scenario again! So, I admitted that in actual fact; My names is; Ebony & I'm an Addict! Accepted the help from several Drug & Alcohol Facilities that helped me with all the information needed about my addiction and the help available before quickly making the decision about admitting myself into a rehabilitation facility as it was one of my only options left! This is where Serenity Lodge came into being a huge part of my recovery as they were the rehabilitation facility to accept me as becoming a resident that resided on the complex slowly working my way through recovery..... One day at a time!

Once I had moved into Serenity Lodge I had become to think and believe that the answer to this question was "No, My disease has NOT been active recently!" Yet it wasn't until I was Four or Five weeks through Serenity Lodge's Program (Narcotics Anonymous Step Working Guide) that i had finally comprehended that even though I wasn't outside the walls / gates of the Rehab Complex using Methamphetamine's daily I was still inside a Rehabilitation Facility due to the fact I was a recovering addict which in reality means more than being a person who was just dependent on Methamphetamine's! I was a human being that still and will continue to suffer from the disease of addiction for the rest of my life... I Just have to learn how to manage my life, change the things I can, accept those things I cannot change and have the wisdom to know the difference! 

Throughout my journey so far over these past few months of learning to live life without resorting back to old behaviors of using drugs to cope I have unintentionally began to become obsessed with other things such as; Caffeine, Sugar, Exercise, Narcotics Anonymous Meetings, Step Work and Etc. which in reality means the answer to; Has my disease been active recently? would honestly have to be answered with;

 

 Yes, My disease has been active recently! 

 

ADDICTIONS CAN BE WITH ANYTHING

"ADDICT" ... IS THAT YOU?

Addiction is a whole lot more than;

"DRUG ADDICTION & ALCOHOLISM"

 

What does "The Disease Of Addiction" mean to me?

 

When I was originally informed about "The Disease Of Addiction" during my first week I had accounted at Serenity Lodge...  I can honestly say I seriously couldn't gasp the concept of it completely nor could I even bear to attempt to comprehend what it would even mean to me! Which had me led me to constantly over-thinking the reality of the Disease causing me to make myself believe it was most probably yet i was semi somewhat certain it defiantly had no connection of any kind to my past, present or even my methamphetamine addiction! 

 

Yet when going over my Step One work during the 6th & 7th week into my journey of recovery at Serenity Lodge I had realized that the whole "Disease Of Addiction" thought(s) / meaning(s) was a whole different kind of scenario / angle compared to my original thoughts on the apparent meaning of the; "Disease Of Addiction!" Being in the 7th week I had self received a great deal of realization which is why iI now know that the Disease Of Addiction means that I have next to none / great lack of self-control which isn't only with my past, present & yet to be future behaviors! It also has great deal dictation via my actions & which had amazingly served me countless times throughout my active addiction which had featured a large scale of compulsive & obsessive intakes of my beloved poison; Methamphetamine which became detrimental effectively yet nearly suddenly due to the amounts I personally forced myself to inhale on a daily basis which theoretically left me constantly dissatisfied within the drug yet the Disease Of Addiction (Chronic Brain Disorder) has in reality taken over my mind, body & soul which is the reason I am Powerless over this Primary Disease which can be cured... Which is where Rehabilitation at Serenity Lodge had come into my life as The Disease Of Addiction Must be treated, managed & monitored over a lifetime to receive the freedom you've longingly been seeking!

The Disease of Addiction:

 

 

Is more powerful than you could ever believe!

It's not easy but honestly;

YOU CAN BREAK FREE & CHANGE!!!!

 

 

 

 

 

Written By:

Ebony Kara

Perth, Western Australia