We are given a life with our name as the title when we enter this world which they say is our own yet we are taught right from wrong due to the fact we are taught by those that gave us the gift of life! Which goes back decades which technically leaves us walking this life somewhat on our own! As we progress throughout our personal journey through our life we tend to make choices & act out in certain ways which causes you to receive certain reactions, opinions & consequences from others surrounding you as a result of your choices or actions effected someone or something else which obviously isn't accepted by the eyes of the law/religion/family! When we experience these consequences for our behavior, choices & actions we tend to be in a severe state of denial of any wrong doings as we have taught ourselves to honestly believe that the things we do are okay & effects no one else but ourselves! Majority of the time we repeat certain behaviors/actions with the hope that we receive a different outcome rather than the same as previous experiences. Some may learn the first time others may take a little longer... Like myself! I have repeated the behaviors a million times over because even though I'm after the same result as in the past I strongly believed it's a different situation to the past ones yet it's only now that I have comprehended the reasons & gained an understanding why certain results were received! Once accepting & gaining knowledge of my past/choices & actions I had come to realize the reality of my personal decisions which was a never ending cycle leaving me no choice yet to change the direction path of my life journey!
Honestly, I must admit;
Life.. It's not easy & seriously far from simple! Life's a lesson... Past & Present! YOU are the choices that you choose to make!
My personal opinion regarding the past & present results/outcomes caused by your decisions is to at least memorize the reactions/outcomes of your actions & if you make the same mistake(s) again... It's actually okay, we are only human & we are constantly learning! We will get it right in the long run! Just accept your fuckups, take responsibility for your actions & just move on, what's done is done! Oh, Also... If someone or something decides to stay within the journey of your past it's for whatever reasons you'll come to realize at a later date! Sometimes the things or people come back into your life sometimes they don't & if they don't they obviously not acceptable nor needed within your present & future journey!
Personally Admitting Effects of Decisions;
Honestly, I know that in the past I have made bad choices/decisions. Yes, I have hurt those I seriously shouldn't of & that I have made certain mistakes repetitively sometimes with intentions yet majority of the time unintentionally! Yet, In reality... I'm only human & I am still currently learning as you are too! I have honestly & stupidly had to learn majority of things the hard way! At the end of the day at least then or within time I can admit my wrong doings & the fact I have flaws & that I have sadly yet only myself to blame for those no longer within any aspect of my life! I'm truly, deeply & ever so honestly, extremely apologetic for the hurt & pain my life of destruction has caused! I do have complete understanding & acknowledge that I only have myself to blame! In reality to me, Life's like a gamble, day in, day out... You never know what's just around the corner! So, from now... I shall seriously attempt to mend all my wrongs where I can; accept the things I can not change, Change the things I can & have the Wisdom to know the difference because... LIFE GOES ON weather you like it or not!
