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ADDICTIONS CAN BE WITH ANYTHING

"ADDICT" ... IS THAT YOU?

Addiction is a whole lot more than;

"DRUG ADDICTION & ALCOHOLISM"

 

"ADDICT" ... IS THAT YOU?

Addiction is a whole lot more than;

"DRUG ADDICTION & ALCOHOLISM"

 

"ADDICT" ... IS THAT YOU?

Addiction is a whole lot more than;

"DRUG ADDICTION & ALCOHOLISM"

 

"ADDICT" ... IS THAT YOU?

Addiction is a whole lot more than;

"DRUG ADDICTION & ALCOHOLISM"

 

"ADDICT" ... IS THAT YOU?

Addiction is a whole lot more than;

"DRUG ADDICTION & ALCOHOLISM"

 

ADDICTIONS CAN BE WITH ANYTHING

Meth & it's Darkside:

Seriously, yet honestly; the dark side of Methamphetamines is when the very moment it first gets into your soul, it starts to destroy all the connections to your ability to effectively reason, feel real emotions & make a moral decision with a conscience that knows the difference between right & wrong. The user/addict, who once functioned as a logical & loving human being before the Methamphetamines had gained control, now functions no more than an emotionless & programmed robot. In reality, Methamphetamines (Meth) definitely couldn't, doesn't & never will/shall care who it destroys & has this undeniably great ability to strip away every connection that attaches the conscience to every human being. Then & only then, can & does Meth transform a person to think, feel & behave in a cold & heartless fashion. But, this programming only lasts however long it takes for a fatal glitch to happen & then; all chaos breaks loose. Most of the Meth created robots either & up making their life an endless occupation as a prisoner in correction facilities, making a mental institution their lifetime homestead, or just simply become a recluse from all of society & pass on/die without ever knowing what life could have been like free from their addiction to Meth. Only the very few that somehow find that one last connection to their soul, will reach out & hold on to it for dear life. That is the moment, they can see how horrific their life has become & fight like hell to break free from Meth's control. For the ones that are successful in climbing their way out of the pit of darkness that Meth created for them to fall in, it can be a tremendous struggle to recover & heal. Every single day, hour, minute & even every single minute can seem so overwhelmingly difficult while learning to live without Meth. But, what happens in this process is the further destruction of Meth is halted & those once dead & dormant connections to the soul come alive & begin to function again as they get healed/progress through recovery. From the moment we are born, we learn how to eat, crawl, walk, speak, make logical decisions with good judgment & become loving & moral adults.

Honestly, I am convinced that Meth's destruction of one's soul, makes a person to have to go back as a newborn & theoretically be retrained all over again how to function normally. This can be so frustrating to the adult mind of the addict to have to go through this learning stage all over again. It would be so awesome if the moment one decides to stop using Meth, that every bit of it's destruction could magically disappear & instantly be healed. This is when you start to feel the harsh betrayal of Meth as you recall it's promise. A promise to always love you without end no matter if you turned you back on it or not. Anger, fury & dismay set in as you learn it was all a big lie. For Meth is like an abusing spouse, who fills your head & heart with sweet & wonderful intentions. Feeling much like a victim of domestic violence, you experience a sensation of drowning in the sea of hurt, confusion, guilt & depression. You keep saying to yourself over and over again, "I did everything my lover (Meth) wanted. I became everything Meth wanted me to be. I gave away everything important to me. I even gave up the person I was born to be & all the happiness & success I wanted for my life just so Meth could be my number one focus." It's only then that you start to question about where it all went wrong & slowly you begin to realize Meth was only using your trusting heart that was starved for love, affection & protection to lure you in to it's wicked, wide web of destruction. You ask yourself, "How stupid are you? How could you have been so blind? Why did you let yourself get caught up in Meth's lie in the first place?

Also not to mention, why oh why would you keep letting Meth treat you this way when you were on the losing end? Why did you not leave Meth before it had a chance to destroy you this much?" Remorse & feeling the shame of allowing yourself to stay locked up in Meth's abuse kicks in. You begin to feel mistrust of yourself to make healthy decisions & judgment's that help you pick a mate who will really love you like you deserve. A mate who has a moral foundation of honesty, a true desire to see you happy and full of joy, and an endless love that only seeks for ways to show you that you are important and worthy to be loved.

Addictive Behaviors

Along with addiction, there are addictive behaviors that are quite common among addicts. Lying, keeping secrets, hiding pills and obsessively counting them, making unnecessary emergency room visits and constantly "doctor shopping." As the addiction escalates, engaging in such illegal activities as stealing prescription pads, committing forgery, and buying drugs off the street is also quite common behavior.

These behaviors usually stem from the desperation an addict feels regarding getting, securing, and taking their drug of choice. Under other circumstances, the individual would probably not engage in the behaviors listed above, unless they were previously part of his/her personality structure. In other words, addictive behaviors are limited to the addiction itself and are generally dissonant with the person’s beliefs and values in any other area of their life.

Dependence or Addiction?

There is a difference between dependence & addiction. Dependence occurs when tolerance builds up & the body needs the drug in order to function. Withdrawal symptoms will begin if the drug is stopped abruptly. Yet, on the other hand, when a person turns to the regular use of a drug to satisfy emotional & psychological needs, they are addicted to that substance! Physical dependence also exists, but the drug has become a way to cope with (or avoid) all kinds of uncomfortable feelings.

Majority of drug addicts do begin by needing the drug weather they are prescribed for medical reasons or making themselves believe they need the drug in order to function/live. Which at some point/somewhere along the line, the drug obviously/clearly/unintentionally yet slowly begins to take over their lives & becomes more important than anything/anyone else & majority of the time nothing will stop/get in the way of  them gaining/receiving their drug of choice.

Many people surrounding someone suffering the disease of addiction or currently within an active addiction or even someone that is completely against drugs find it extremely difficult to understand how someone could let addiction even happen. Majority of people constantly ask: "How could someone who is reasonably intelligent & sophisticated in regards to drug addiction become an addict?" Without the realization or even somewhat thinking about the fact that addiction seriously has absolutely nothing to do with intelligence & addiction to legal drugs is no different than any other substance abuse problem (illegal drugs). Clearly, the potential risks and dangers involved with taking narcotics doesn’t stop someone from becoming an addict.

The Disease: Addiction.

What makes us addicts is the disease of addiction-not the drugs, not our behavior, but our disease. There is something within us that makes us unable to control our use of drugs. This same "something" also makes us prone to obsession and compulsion in other areas of our lives. How can we tell when our disease is active? When we become trapped in obsessive, compulsive, self-centered routines, endless loops that lead nowhere but to physical, mental, spiritual, and emotional decay.

Character Defects: We All Have Them

Character Defects: All Have Them 

 

In 12-step programs, steps six and seven deal with human failings, otherwise labeled character defects, or shortcomings. All three phrases mean the same thing. In some of the literature of recovery, they are also likened to the Seven Deadly Sins of greed, lust, envy, sloth, pride, anger & gluttony. Recognizing them in our own lives is difficult, while recognizing them in those around us is easy. For this purpose, many people in recovery groups will say that they act as a mirror to show others what behaviors they cannot see in themselves.

  

 

 

 

No One’s Perfect:

 

For most, the substance abuse was to cover up feelings of fear, inadequacy, insecurity and social awkwardness. Nearly every newly recovering person can relate to these and admit feeling them before the onset of their using and again after stopping the substance use. How to deal with them? Consider this idea, if you will: Perhaps everyone feels these things from time to time. How then, does the rest of the world deal with self-doubt? For most, it is a matter of looking around to see if they can spot someone else who looks like they feel that way and approach them for a short conversation. Or quickly say a prayer that you be given the courage you don’t really expect to receive, (but ask anyway), and go on as though you had received it. Strangely enough, many people report that they have done this and have successfully conquered a small but important social fear. This gave them enough courage to try it again on a bigger and more important level. Soon they felt confident that they could accomplish many things that seemed impossible a short time before.

 

Acting As If..

 

Find a way to walk into the things that frighten you. Find a partner to walk with you if possible. Many of life’s situations can be challenging when first encountered without the prop of drugs and alcohol. Walking into and through these experiences will give you enough confidence to continue. Remember the fear that went through your heart when you first considered not drinking/using drugs? And here you are now, free from those and looking at how to live life without character defects that can cripple relationships, jobs, school and other social environments where you long to feel a sense of belonging. A common phrase in recovery settings is to “act as if,” meaning to behave as if you felt confident and go right ahead with what you are afraid to do. This can be a job interview, speaking in a group, taking a class, going to the dentist, driving a car, an endless list of things that bring fear into many hearts and minds. For a large number of those in recovery, it is simply a matter of wanting to do something badly enough to dare to do it! So, say a prayer and jump right in.

 

 

Personal Opinion & Views: Life.

 

We are given a life with our name as the title when we enter this world which they say is our own yet we are taught right from wrong due to the fact we are taught by those that gave us the gift of life! Which goes back decades which technically leaves us walking this life  somewhat on our own! As we progress throughout our personal journey through our life we tend to make choices & act out in certain ways which causes you to receive certain reactions, opinions & consequences from others surrounding you as a result of your choices or actions effected someone or something else which obviously isn't accepted by the eyes of the law/religion/family! When we experience these consequences for our behavior, choices & actions we tend to be in a severe state of denial of any wrong doings as we have taught ourselves to honestly believe that the things we do are okay & effects no one else but ourselves! Majority of the time we repeat certain behaviors/actions with the hope that we receive a different outcome rather than the same as previous experiences. Some may learn the first time others may take a little longer... Like myself! I have repeated the behaviors a million times over because even though I'm after the same result as in the past I strongly believed it's a different situation to the past ones yet it's only now that I have comprehended the reasons & gained an understanding why certain results were received! Once accepting & gaining knowledge of my past/choices & actions I had come to realize the reality of my personal decisions which was a never ending cycle leaving me no choice yet to change the direction path of my life journey!

 

Honestly, I must admit;

Life.. It's not easy & seriously far from simple! Life's a lesson... Past & Present! YOU are the choices that you choose to make!

 

 My personal opinion regarding the past & present results/outcomes caused by your decisions is to at least memorize the reactions/outcomes of your actions & if you make the same mistake(s) again... It's actually okay, we are only human & we are constantly learning! We will get it right in the long run! Just accept your fuckups, take responsibility for your actions & just move on, what's done is done! Oh, Also... If someone or something decides to stay within the journey of your past it's for whatever reasons you'll come to realize at a later date! Sometimes the things or people come back into your life sometimes they don't & if they don't they obviously not acceptable nor needed within your present & future journey!

 

Personally Admitting Effects of Decisions;

Honestly, I know that in the past I have made bad choices/decisions. Yes, I have hurt those I seriously shouldn't of & that I have made certain mistakes repetitively sometimes with intentions yet majority of the time unintentionally! Yet, In reality... I'm only human & I am still currently learning as you are too! I have honestly & stupidly had to learn majority of things the hard way! At the end of the day at least then or within time I can admit my wrong doings & the fact I have flaws & that I have sadly yet only myself to blame for those no longer within any aspect of my life! I'm truly, deeply & ever so honestly, extremely apologetic for the hurt & pain my life of destruction has caused! I do have complete understanding & acknowledge that I only have myself to blame! In reality to me, Life's like a gamble, day in, day out... You never know what's just around the corner! So, from now... I shall seriously attempt to mend all my wrongs where I can; accept the things I can not change, Change the things I can & have the Wisdom to know the difference because... LIFE GOES ON weather you like it or not!